Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in rvmuro's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, April 2nd, 2008
12:21 pm	Soulmate- Natasha Bedingfield Incompatible, it don't matter though 'cos someone's bound to hear my cry Speak out if you do you're not easy to find Is it possible Mr. Loveable is already in my life? right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise Who doesn't long for someone to hold who knows how to love you without being told somebody tell me why I'm on my own if there's a soulmate for everyone Here we are again, circles never end how do I find the perfect fit there's enough for everyone but I'm still waiting in line Who doesn't long for someone to hold who knows how to love you without being told somebody tell me why I'm on my own if there's a soulmate for everyone If there's a soulmate for everyone Most relationships seem so transitory They're all good but not the permanent one Who doesn't long for someone to hold who knows how to love you without being told somebody tell me why I'm on my own if there's a soulmate for everyone Who doesn't long for someone to hold who knows how to love you without being told somebody tell me why I'm on my own if there's a soulmate for everyone If there's a soulmate for everyone (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
8:10 pm	March 19,2008 recent happenings My relationship has been a rollercoaster ride the last few weeks. She has given me multiple reasons for our break up. I wish things could just go back to the way they were 3 months ago...but it’s not that simple. We are working on things-taking each day as it comes. All I know is that I am completely in love with her and willing to wait and see "what happens" wth us. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 12th, 2008
9:44 pm	March 10,2008 what happened Rachel told me that she's not in love with me anymore and that's why she broke up with me. Enough said... 11:55 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove getting my heart broken Rachel and I have been struggling to make us work. We both have issues, but we promised each other that we would hang onto each other and fight threw them. Well today she broke up with me. The irony is that today would have been our 8th month anniversary. Great way to have things end with the person I thought that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. The worst part is that I am so crazy, mad in love with her that I can't see past it. I've been making myself nuts trying to get her to work things out with me the last few days, because I saw this coming. I actually might have made things worse. Relationships SUCK!!!!! (Comment on this)
Monday, March 10th, 2008
12:10 am	July 6,2007 what's going on... I met someone. Well, actually, I didn't just meet them. They have been a part of my life for the last 2 years. I just looked at her differently and oddly enough she happened to do the same with me at the same time. I don't understand why something like that would happen after such a long period of time but it has. And it's pretty much turned my world around. I have never dated someone that I was honestly just friends with...and we truely have been nothing more than friends. I called her every time I had something happy, sad, and/or just significant occur in my life...and she treated me the same. Which brings me to my feelings for her...honestly, I have never felt like this for anyone before. I can't even begin to describe what's going on in my head and my heart. I actually could see myself settling down...amazing... 8:14 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove best song ever Stay With Me lyrics Baby, the clock on the wall is lying It's not really that late It's too cold outside to be walking around the streets of this town And wherever you think you have to be can wait Why don't you stay with me Share all your secrets tonight We can make believe the morning sun never will rise Come and lay your head on this big brass bed And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah Baby, there is just no use in hiding with the way that I am feeling right now With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out Baby, stay with me share all your secrets tonight We can make believe the morning sun never will rise Come and lay your head on this big brass bed and we'll be alright as long as you stay with me Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket So stay Stay with me Share all your secrets tonight We can make believe the morning sun never will rise Come and lay your head on this big brass bed And we'll be alright as long as you stay I'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah Stay with me (Comment on this)
12:08 am	July 10,2007 You always make it too early to say good night and impossible to say good bye...and I am now officially cheesecakes biggest fan...lol...don't ask...(written about Rachel) (Comment on this)
12:07 am	Nov.26,2007 O.K....where to begin. Looking at condo's and it sucks. So far they are just too small to fit us both and all our clothing. Oh, did I mention that we are both clothes whores? Arrrghh...has to have 2 bedrooms for friends and family. And some sort of storage/basement/atic. So that's the first mountain we are trying to get over. 2 is me finding a school to finish my degree. I want it to be completely on line. I have a huge catalog of schools that offer degrees on line that I am slowly sorting out. 3 is the wedding...don't let me talk about that...I will go on for days. We had selected Alaska for a honeymoon...but, now we are talking about getting visas an traveling abroad...maybe Europe. Sigh, just want to settle in and stop the madness of it all. (Comment on this)
12:06 am	Dec. 13,2007 My first Chanukah was awsome. Rachel's family was wonderful when it came to understanding my lack of knowledge about the Jewish religion. They explained everything beautifully to me. They even gave me a present. I had a great time...and (big grin) I think celebrating the holiday brought Rachel and I even closer together. Now it's time for my family and Christmas...EEEeeeeeee (Comment on this)
12:04 am	Jan. 27,2008 Sometimes I get too caught up in my world to remember that I am someone of importance to her...she texts me that she's having a busy day at work. Lots of injured kids...then my cell rings and it's her. She just wanted to say "hi" and tell me she loves me. And I sit back and marvel at how lucky I am to be with someone so wonderful... (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 9th, 2008
11:56 pm	July 6,2007 I want to hold your hand when you are sick...your heart when you are sad...your head when you are weary...and all your love when you are away from me...(taken from myspace-written about Rachel) (Comment on this)
11:55 pm	Sunday July 8,2007 Her love holds some sort of magic that makes my demons dance and play...and turns my darkest night into the brightest day. Her touch has the strength to move my greatest mountains of fear and pain...and yet she is gentle enough to calm the torrid waters of my rageing mind when anxiety sets in.(written about Rachel) (Comment on this)
11:41 pm	my girl Rachel-March 1,2008 I sometimes become overwrought by the situations every day life puts me into...example- my car; I have put a few thousand dollars into my car over the last 6 months for major repair work. I did so under the misguided understanding that my car would be returned to a level of performance almost equal to the day it was made. How could I be ssoooo foolish to think this, you ask? Well, in my mind, when all the old car parts are replaced with pretty, shiny, expensive, new car parts, you get a "new" car. Stupid me to think that, huh? I will now have to buy a new car. I can say that calmly now because I have had time to internalize the facts and rationalize what my options are. Unfortunatly, when the "shit hit the fan", I was not even remotely anywhere near this close to being calm or collected. Remember Chicken Little running frantically around screaming "the sky is falling"? That is a great example of how I reacted. OK, here comes another "Rachel to my rescue moment"...while I was freaking out, she sent me countless texts telling me that things would be fine-blah-blah-blah. But what got through to me was when she told me that no matter what happens, she will always be right by my side, loveing me. "Don't cry baby, we'll get threw this". She completely surprised me by telling me that...so I pulled my shit together...and I purchased a new car. (Comment on this)
11:40 pm	Valentine's Day Valentine's Day has always been a crappy day for me...until this year/Rachel. First, let me say that I sent her M&M's with "special" sayings that the Mars Company printed on them (with my instructions)...that's all I am telling about my gift. She adopted a monkey, in my name, from the Monkey World Ape Rescue Center, located in Nr. Wareham, Dorset, England. I am now the proud Mommy to Eveline, a chimpanzee who was rescued from a Dutch laboratory on 12/02/99. For those of you who truely know me, I have a little (family generated) obsession with monkeys...or as we like to call them....MON--KEEEEEYS!!!!! Best present ever-Ever-EVER!!! (Comment on this)
11:39 pm	Feb. 1,2008 Yesterday morning we went to this very small diner for breakfast. We had just started to eat, when this older couple sat in the booth behind us. I am guessing that they were in their late 70"s. Rachel was very taken by them...she watched them while we ate and kept commenting on how cute they are. When we were finished eating, Rachel went up to the register to pay the bill. When she came back to the table, she told me that she had purchased their breakfast as well as ours. AND THAT MY FRIENDS IS JUST ONE OF THE MANY COUNTLESS REASONS WHY I LOVE RACHEL!!!!! Just felt like sharing.... (Comment on this)
11:36 pm	my girl Sometimes I get too caught up in my world to remember that I am someone of importance to her...she texts me that she's having a busy day at work. Lots of injured kids...then my cell rings and it's her. She just wanted to say "hi" and tell me she loves me. And I sit back and marvel at how lucky I am to be with someone so wonderful... (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 23rd, 2006
10:24 am	sleep is for the weak... work=40 hours+12 hours(or more) of O.T. soccer=2 days practice=1 day clinic+2 days coaching games+ 1 day playing WHAT DOES THIS MAKE????? Ellie=never enough times to text,talk,or see MISS YOU BABY!!!! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 9th, 2006
9:06 am	EEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 48 more days and Ellie's home dee dah deet deet dee dee dah deet deet dee 48 more days... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
6:23 pm	I'm rushing to get ready for work. This will be short. What the F**K...I feel like everything is always a riddle. It frustraits me...gggrrrrrrr Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: anything Green Day (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
9:34 pm	coming home... ..."feels like coming home..." So happy to hold you again...to feel your warmth pressed up againest me...the smell of your hair...the softness of your skin...the gentle caress of your lips as they push passionatly againest mine... So sad to see you leave...hang my arms down, heavy and empty...look at the chinese food in the fridge and know that i'm eating it alone...watch the snow change from "a thing of wonder and beauty" because you were just in it to just plain wet and cold So accustomed to the change from your being here to you being gone...but never used to it...never wanting you to leave and not knowing how to tell you... Hope this let's you know...I love you...Pooh (Comment on this)